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Now is not a good time to blog (4am), i should be sleeping but i can’t, maybe because too excited about CG sport day (8am). Normally after friday CG i will very very tired because i need to share the word of God out of my heart and soul, but now when i closed my eyes i will see the faces of my CG members (they look like angels to me, even when some behave like a devil…hehe).

Today(Friday) CG was one of the very excited and powerful meeting. At 7:35pm few of our CG gathered to pray for the CG and our handsome Gary leaded us into the time of worship. Wow the presence of God is really awesome and i can feel the  atmosphere was really lifted up when all of us worship God with a correct attitude. latter Sharob leaded us to play a very funny Ice-breaker (tupai dan pokok), everyone enjoy so much. Next we have our handsome Gary leaded us into the time of worship. I saw tears began to falls and people hearts began to open for God. The worship is so amazing. And today i shared on the topic "releasing the glory in you". We really need to increase our value, not to be a liability to others but be an asset for the society, be some one wherever you go people will enjoy your presence there because you carry blessing to them. Every have different gifts, some have the gift in creative arts like music, dance, painting… some have the gift in computer, cooking, study and lots more. But what i want to encourage all of us to do is to maximize our gifts, increase the value inside you. Thomas Edison say "Genius is 1% inspiration and 99% of hard work". So hard work bring results. Dont be lazy. Let your value (Glory) increase not decrease.

After the CG we went for "makan" because Yap was tired so we went back to "Aloy’s house" first and i asked her how many people attended the CG just now, she gave me a "shock" answer, "35" (including 6 visitors, we welcome you all, hope you all like it). We count people because people are important to us. I always having problem to remember people name (need to improve in this area), is getting harder and harder for me to taking care the whole CG, because it is too big. i can not sit down to talk to every members every week. if one person took me one hour it will be about 30 hours but i dont have 30 hours to spend in Cheras, unless i dont sleep during Friday night and Saturday night then i might able to catch up with all CG members (so if you find that recently i didnt spend much time to talk to you, please dont think that i dont love you any more, i still love you). But the CG is still growing and i dont want it to stop. so now i need to make a very difficult choice, to separate the CG into 2, it is a happy and sad decision. happy because we are growing, sad because i cant see some of the members on Friday. But believe me i will still be very happy to listen and to help you to grow even you are not under my CG (so dada pls understand that i really love you all but i can not separate my self into 2).

Long time didnt blog ready. so this morning i was thinking what should i blog? i dont want to blog some things that discourage people and some things not true from my heart. hope what ever i blod here can help and encourage you.

i always have a mindset and attitude is to be a hero that will save everyone. i always believe that i can do ALL things and i will keep myself so busy till i dont have time to go dating with Yap (but she is good and very consideration towards me, thanks yap). some time she will teasing me by telling my youth is they dont want to go movie or shopping i will not bring her because i will go movie or shopping with her when my youth wanted to go. haha. she really been good to me. i always wanted to spend all of my time with my youth in order to know them more and build up the relationship with them because i really love them (not only those i knew for long time, but all who attended the cg and church before, if you have ever attend my cg and church before, i want to tell you, i really love you). i want to help them to solve all their problem, if i can not solve it for them i would like to walk with them  and face the problems togather. i always like to involve in all church’s activity and help up, and this make me dont have time for myself too. i always think that all church work is my responsible (i think this is commitment), but i began to realise i can not do all thing, i can not save everyone, im not a superman, im not Jesus!

so next month UCSI cg is going to multiply into 2 groups (thanks God for His mercy and grace for us, we start from 5/1/07 14 person till now having 27 regular attender). at first i was worry and not willing to separate, because scare that after multipy some of the youth will not come for cg any more and their fire for God will cold down, worry about this and that…. (i must confess that im too proud of myself, thinking that only me can help them, im sorry God it is You not me). i always want to save everyone, but now i really need to depend on God to save everyone, because i really have a limit, i can not do all things. im just a human being, but it doesnt meaning i will give up every thing, its just that i have learn to do my best and trust God will do the rest. so the cg members who are not under me please help and assist your leader to grow the cg and dont let the fire grow cold and keep making cg a place where people feel most welcome. remember what we have disscuss before "how to make a church close down?" and those who are so not lucky one, still in the same cg with me, please work togather with me to expand the Kingdom of God in Pharmacy, in UCSI. lets carry His presence into UCSI and show them the love of God.

we will speak the language  of  "Faith, Hope and Love", to connect people to people, connect people to purpose and connect people to God.