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i just came back from mission trip yesterday, very tired but was a very good experience. we went in to the orang asli kampong to build a baptism pool for a brother who are hadical and he have a 7 years old son. im so touch by the son because he willing to stay back for the father and taking care the father. i feel sad when i saw how simple and small is the orang asli house. their lives is so simple and easy, compare to the lives in the city, i wonder do we really need so many things in lives? so i have learn that we need to live in simplicity.

on sunday i went for 2 orang asli church, they dont have any high tech musical instrument yet they can still worship God, and i can feel the presence of God too. they run the service very unprossional but God is there. so i began to reflect about my ministry in church.

i really been bless by this mission trip. i will try to arrage to go 1 more time…..so are you ready to go with me??

Im going to mission trip today (18-22/5/07). i have never been to mission trip before so dont know what will i do, but im happy and excited because going with my STM friends (ruth, daniel, rod and….). im worry about them because we need to carry lots of staff and walk for 3 hours++ to reach the destination. i think i need to slow down to wait for them or i go in first put my staff and come out to help them…hehehe.

after the mission trip im going backk to jb for about 1 week ++ because of my "wedding fair". so i wouldnt be in KL for about 2 weeks and i really miss the church, my lovely cg members and unlovely cg members (aloy & dada).

so do pray for my mission trip(pray that i can come back on time as well, no rain) and my event in jb. i really need God’s strength to help me to finish my job.

love you…

The Lord have given us 2 great commandments =  Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength. 2nd , is Love your neighbor as yourself (Mark 12:29 -31). last friday cg i share with my precious members (only 6 turn up, but was really good and enjoy cg) abt this verse as well. i share with them about how God want us to honor our "parents" = natural parents, people who are older than us, city fathers (goverments), and spiritual parents. #if you have miss the last friday cg, you still have a chance to hear this sermon on 2/6, because i will be preaching this topic in service, hehe.#

i want to share how i love my cg members. every time before i leave Cheras, my cg members sure very "perasan" saying "dont miss me ah", but everyday i miss them so much. The feeling is like i just fall in love with yap 6 years + ago, miss all my cg members, wish to see them everyday, every moments. i always want to belanja them makan, because i always want to express my "love" for them through giving or whatever i can do for them. i enjoy myself so much by spending time with them "pillow talk" and understand their problem and past. i even hope that i am UCSI students so that i can see them everyday (but i think they are scare to see me everyday, cos i will always ask them go makan).

i always treat them better than my own brother and sister and i hope this will not scare them away, because people will think that i have a hidden motive. i want to know thier firends as well (so that i will become a big brother to their friends as well), to involve in their lives and be with them whenever they need help.

i love aloysious because he is so funny and creative, so obedience to dada. i love dada because she is like a mum to us and care for us, i like the way she nagging. i love kelvin because he is good in Dota and pool, and he is willing to share with me about his life. i love wilfred because he is so helpful and obedience, and he is so hunger to learn more about God. i love Rachel because she is so sensitive to others and she concern about others. i love Christina because she is willing to help others and fervent in prayer. i love Sabrina because she is ever ready to do any thing that i assignt for her and her hunger to serve and passion for God is so real. i love Sharon because every thing she will say "cool" and her love for others, really touch me, and she can sing very well. i love Sara because she belive in God and she is willing to let God change her lives. i love Paul because he is so true in his spiritual walk with God and he is humble. i love Bernard he is helpful, humble and he is so handsome and mature, and he is good at IT, which i totally dont know. i love siew ching because she is so gentle and want to know God more and she is so lovely. i love Jenn Hau because he is gentle and he have graet atitude toward church. i love siao yong because she is pretty and funny and she is very kind to everyone. i love christine because she is smart and willing to help me when i ask her for help. i love belinda because she have a Bata shop…hehe, she work very hard for her studies(dont give up,God is with you). i love jasmine because she have faith in God and she want to see people get save. i love sharon (muar), she is willing to travel and help me to takinng care of michelle tay, she is so humble, we are good friend. ilove michelle tay because she like lee hom, and i wacthing her grow from 10 years olds, just like my little sister. i love Rod because he is funny, creative and he is passionate for God. finally i love Yap, because she is my "paopei" and she support me and understand me in my ministry and willing to make changes in order to help me.

i love you all……cant  wiat to see you all.

This weekend is Mother’s Day, so lot of people will not be around. So this weekend service sure will leave few people only. As a church leader how should we face this kind thing happen? what kind of ATTITUDE we should have when members telling you they can not come church because of Mother’s day, Father’s day, parents birthday, friends birthday, who and who aniversary, friends wedding…. As a leader we encourage people to spend time with their parents and honor parents as it is the 5th commanments from God. i love to spend time with my parents too and wish i can go back jb but can i?

im not angry with people who are not coming to church, but just feel lost and discourage when i can imagine that on Saturday will have only few people in church. i always like to work as a team. when  i work hard for something and feel tired, but when i know that the rest of the team members are working hard too i will be encourage even motivated to work harder. but when you know that you are working alone, the more you work the more you feel tired and wanted to give up. i have enough of this type of team members in my life… how can we go and win the battle when everyone is worry that wheter the team members are around or not?

i always believe church leader should be a good example for the memebers to follow but i feel that even how hard i have put in the effort also no use. because our heart are not unite for the same goal. when a football team having the same goal to win the game, they will put aside personal needs and work as a team to win the game. will christiano ronaldo (Man U player) tell Alex Ferguson this weekend he can not play because he need to go back to his country celebrate Mother’s Day?

i just dont know what kind attitude i should have(im not angry but lost). thats why i still learning to be a leader.

…church leader…

(i dont like to blog because i will share what is inside my heart and afraid that it will hurt some people even when im not intention to do it, so if you been hurt or angry by my sharing, pls forgive me.)

This Saturday when i was going to church, the feeling and attitude for me to go church is so much different. i used to be so passionate for going to church but this week is like going for the sake of going, like a habit. i know it is wrong to having this kind of attitude and feeling but i just can’t help. at night i talk to one of my very close friends, melissa about it.

i hope GEPC will not be like others church that people will go on Sunday for the fellowship only. but church is a place for us to worship God and bringing new friends for God to touch them and heal their broken heart.

i have come to the cross road of my life, lots of people keep asking me to close down my company (Anycom), because as a future full time pastor i should focus on God’s ministry and now i should focus only study. that was a moment i was so tired because of my company, study, church and my family. so im thinking to let go some area of my life, i can not let go of my family, church and study, the one thing that i can choice to let go is the company.

my company-Anycom Management & Marketing. me and two of my very best friends, my brothers (without them i will not be who i am today, thanks ian and caleb). we started as an advertising company in 2003, we are young and inocent, the company didnt really make any profit but we survive. in 2004 both of my partners telling me that we are going to organize a wedding fair because it will help us making lots of money, im not really convince by them but i will follow whatever they say(because im the younger and i trust them). but the event didnt turn out what we expect it to be, it cost us loss RM 45,000. it was a very big amount to us, i was so lost and worry, at the age of 22 i was in debt of RM 45k. but by God’s grace within 1 and half year the debt was clear. and i start organize event in jb, at the age of 22 i was already start organize the biggest beauty fair and wedding fair. lots of people can not believe a young guy like me can organize these 2 biggest events in jb, what i can say is God’s grace for me and i working very hard for it. i always remember in Deuteronomy 8:18 "…for it is He who gives you power to get wealth…"

last year when i was study in STM, the comnpany still giving me salary RM 1000, it help me a lots, because i need to pay the the car installment RM 800 per month and my others expenses. this month finally i finish the car installment, but my dad was expected me to help in the house installment which is RM 2300 per month.

people always telling me that God will provide, can God use my company to provide for me?

the reasons i want to keep the company is

1. i will get income.

2. i can have the chance to build relationship with the bosses in the market, they are lost too.

3. i have put in so much effort into the company and it is hard for me to let go and it is my hobbie to organize events.

so now what should i do?

i just finish reading Rod’s blog….emm, boring! (hahaha)

i am thinking i should start to blog so that people will think what am i thinking inside.

so i hope start from today i will take time to blog and share my life with everyone.